A few weeks ago I left my last employer, Mudlark, to start freelance projects. I worked on a lot of exciting projects and ideas there, but ultimately I had other ideas and had to move on. It’s going well so far, and I’m excited. Suddenly, many more interests have a commercial dimension where they did not before.
The past four years of work revealed an interesting dichotomy in me: I care about culture, but I also care about commerce. I don’t think I want a career that could be defined explicitly as either.
Setting aside any cliches of ruthlessness in business, it is at least a savvy place where clever people can make money. To its detriment, things are produced under all kinds of pressures and as a result, creativity and cultural relevance can suffer. Products can lend themselves to really ill behaviour from producer and consumer/end user alike, while asset columns and balance sheets don’t necessarily indicate long term strategies or the value of R&D. Good numbers rarely compensate for bad judgment, and when they do, it never lasts.
Cultural sectors, on the other hand, tend to rely heavily on patronage. Whether that’s government funding or the largesse of the wealthy, funding opportunities can lead to rapacious applicants and existentially doubtful decision makers. As someone stated it to me once: If you don’t take the money, someone else will. It’s true. At the other end of the process, when you’re in charge of disbursing large amounts of money and trying to make sound decisions, no amount of paperwork and procedure can stop the doubts creeping in. Those processes can at least make sure you’re not handing over a huge load of money to someone incompetent, but still, funding bodies are systems and as a result they can be gamed.
It’s easy to become cynical about the systems the UK has had for cultural funding for the past decade, and almost a moot point as they’re presently being gutted by Cameron’s Tories, but culture itself is important. Setting aside my mundane gripes, it’s really important to me. Whether it’s funded via grass roots or from above, it’s vitally important that we have methods to explore ideas and bits of the world that exist outside the constraints of markets.
The two worlds of culture and commerce don’t understand each other very well, and as a result don’t always work well together, but when they do it’s magic. I see very few organisations that seem to understand this.
I understand more of the world than I did four years ago, and I crave learning more by the year. One of my aims in going freelance is to study as much as I work, and some of the things I do are explicitly non-commercial.
Ten years ago I met people who described me as entrepreneurial, and I didn’t understand what they meant. I’m beginning to see, but at the same time I don’t think I’m chasing the same big score or investment vehicle as many who describe themselves as entrepreneurs. I’m still not sure I’d ever apply the label to myself, but there’s loads of stuff I want to have a go at, some of it risky.
Things I may not have mentioned are Gambling Lambs, the Nottingham Hackspace, GameCamp, and the Indie Arcade at the Eurogamer Expo, all of which I’ll talk about a bit here in future.
I’m more commercial than I was, but have the same values. It’s been an interesting ride so far, and now I feel ready to start poking and driving things a bit more.